Friday, January 14, 2011

Bleeding onto the screen

I have searched my archives for something to put on here, something mostly finished that just needs a little polish. Nada. Zip. Zilch. So I am forced to start from scratch and to be honest . . . I got nothin’.

I haven’t blogged in awhile. Life has definitely got in the way. The busyness of the holidays has combined with my general funk about the condition of our world and other things and left me with nothing encouraging, humorous or engaging to say.

I keep telling myself, this too shall pass, but it has been with me for several months and its hold doesn’t seem to be lifting in the slightest.

Having a three-year old constantly at my elbow doesn’t help my ability to focus and complete sentences. I look for a time of the day to write when he’s otherwise occupied, but then I need sleep too. Liam giving up his nap altogether was the death of my blog. I am hoping to breathe new life into it soon. I miss it.

An occurrence in October really took the wind from my sails and I have been trying since then to get it back. I discovered a fellow blogging friend of mine, someone whose opinions I value, has stopped reading my blog. You know the little traffic feed is cool, it shows you who is reading, well, it also shows you who is not. I don’t understand. I feel incredibly hurt. I keep asking myself, was she the only person I was writing for? The answer has to be no, so I’m trying to make it no.

So I ask my remaining readers, geez I hope there are some, to bear with me while I work through this. I know things will get better. Please keep checking this page. I am struggling to get back to it.

3 comments:

Odie Langley said...

Janie, never fear Odie is hear and will be so please don't stop blogging. I have only been doing it since last June and I have 58 followers now which blows my mind. I usually get very depressed during the holidays but my blog friends helped me get through the season without much trouble. Things should get better now. I know about the little one as my youngest daughter has my 2 grandsons who are 2 & 4. Hang in there & if you need to email mine is odie_langley@yahoo.com
Odie

Doozyanner said...

Janie, I totally understand about lack of time and feeling like one has nothing to write--my blog is exhibit A. This blogging thing is a strange reality...I had a 'tend friend--only knew her through our blogs--who just disappeared from the blogosphere one day. It has been months since I've heard from her and I wonder... I know where she works (or worked) based on her blog, but when does it become stalking to search her out to ask, "Are you OK?"

Spring will come, the economy will change (or not), our politicians will be kinder (or not), but life will go on, and we'll blog when we can. I enjoy reading what you write--especially "string too short to use."

mags said...

It's hard, sometimes, to remember to write. And to remember to read. I'm glad you found the time to write. Please keep it comin', when you can.